“THE PRIVATE DETECTIVE”

by Dr. David Bell

This is the case history of a man on disability with ME/CFS who was shadowed by a detective documenting his brief daily moments of reduced fatigue as proof of fraud. It is excerpted from Dr. Bell’s book, Faces of CFS – Case Histories of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, published in August, 2000. “The Private Detective” illustrates one aspect of cases he has followed since the mid-1980’s. 

Reprinted with the kind permission of Prohealth: 11/9/11

THE PRIVATE DETECTIVE

“Much of the present confusion about CFS is probably generated by the characteristic spurt of increased energy patients experience for extremely brief periods, during the frequently years-long course of their illness.”

Many who suffer from CFS experience a period of relief at some point in their day. The most severe symptoms seem to ease, and a window opens through which a few rays of sunlight pour into their life.

During this period, patients are able to undertake some of the activities that are ordinarily too difficult to manage. For an unlucky few, the shades are drawn and no window exists, or it is very short.

But the majority of people with CFS will have one, two, maybe even three, hours during which the window opens, and activity is possible, before total disability claims them again, stealing hope for at least another day.

This “window” of activity is such a common feature of CFS, I have found that I can actually grade the severity of a patient’s case based on the degree of energy a patient experiences during this window. In fact, I believe that its duration on any given day, over a period of months, can predict the likelihood of recovery from CFS.

CFS patients are as impatient as anyone else would be in the same predicament. They have job commitments to fulfill, families to nurture, life to live. When the ravages of the illness wipe out the majority of time available to them each day, they struggle to make the most of their hour or two of improved health.

Most CFS sufferers live for this window of time, and typically they will try to accomplish as much as possible when it opens, even though they have learned through experience that any exertion will make them feel even worse when the window closes again. Nevertheless, I have observed that most patients prefer to fly for two hours and then “crash and burn” afterward rather than stay within the confines of the hangar.

Eventually, this precious window becomes their life, but their exploitation of it can be dangerous – although not necessarily dangerous to their health. It certainly got Richard Watkins in a lot of trouble.

Richard was destined to be a Lyndonville lifer, constrained by either fate or good fortune to experience life in the comfort of upstate New York. While some young people curse such a fate, and compare it to being born in the Third World, Richard accepted it gracefully and thrived in the rural atmosphere.

In high school, he struggled with Mrs. Carson’s English class, but excelled in Mr. Osgood’s science class. It helped that Mr. Osgood was also the basketball coach. Richard was competitive and had the good fortune to be tall and very strong. It was rumored that Richard’s science grades would have been somewhat less stellar had his athletic prowess been less remarkable.

Richard lived for baseball in the summer and basketball in the winter, as did most of his friends. School work was the obligatory drudgery that afforded him his time on the field or the court.

Perhaps not surprisingly, college was a disappointment; academic knowledge for its own sake made little sense to Richard. Eager to get on with life, he paid scant attention to his advisors’ counsel to carefully lay out a plan for the next several decades. Instead, he fell in love, married a bright, beautiful girl from a nearby town, and jumped at the first good job he could find: a post at Rochester Plastics.

The job required hard labor, but it also promised opportunities for advancement into management over time. Richard’s life was not merely perfect, it was fun.

Then, four years after he began work at Rochester Plastics, he developed CFS. One day he caught the flu. It seemed like your ordinary garden variety flu, probably the same one his cousin and wife had caught at the same time.

Richard didn’t even come to see me to seek treatment for his fever, chills, sore throat, and aching muscles. He knew what I would say: “Aspirin, fluids, and bed rest.” (I hate it when people know what I am going to say, but they are usually correct.)

Anyway, Richard felt he could take a few days off to recover; his work record was perfect.

Curiously, this flu failed to resolve in the expected week’s time. Two weeks later, I ordered the routine blood tests, all the while not really expecting to find any dramatic abnormality, and I prescribed an antibiotic. I thought the flu might have turned intoa sinus infection.

The fever subsided, the chills and sore throat receded to the background, but the exhaustion grew more intense. In addition, headaches and stomach pain joined muscle and joint pain, and he developed an intense sensitivity to bright light.

I felt it was time to take a harder look. I ordered more tests: Mono, unusual infections like Cytomegalovirus and parvovirus, and tests for thyroid inflammation or new onset arthritis. The tests all came back as “normal.”

Two months later, I was very concerned. Richard had been a vigorous, healthy young man; he should have bounced back by then. After assuring him I was only doing my job, I inquired about HIV infection risk factors, and urged him to sign on the dotted line, permitting me to order a test for AIDS. Richard signed, but that test was negative, too. Perhaps, the problem was heavy metal poisoning, I mused; after all, he worked with nasty chemicals on the job site. Again, the tests were negative. I wondered if he had been affected by insecticide sprays from the nearby farm fields, but no evidence of poisoning turned up.

Finally, I sent him to the real doctors in the city.

After six months, hundreds of tests, and three doctors, someone said Richard probably had Epstein-Barr. Richard thought Epstein-Barr was Epstein’s Bar, some long-forgotten roadside joint where he might have picked up food poisoning, or worse. 

I explained that Epstein-Barr was the virus known to cause infectious mononucleosis, but I had my doubts about the diagnosis. Richard’s antibody levels to the virus, one measure of a person’s degree of infection, didn’t seem very high to me.

Still, at least mono was a diagnosis, and that was necessary now. It is hard for a patient to be sick. It is harder still to feel ill and not know what is causing the illness. The added stress and anxiety increase discomfort.

Naturally, a patient’s thoughts turn to cancer, most people have heard of a relative in whom a cancer lingered without being found. With these thoughts, fear begins to grow, and discomfort increases dramatically. The doctor will reassure the patient that it is not cancer, but this is hardly comforting since the doctor has no idea of what is causing the illness in the first place. Actually, the problem with cancer is that it is usually silent in the first stages, which is why it is so difficult to find.

Whatever was causing Richard’s illness was not silent, it screamed many symptoms

With the diagnosis of mono, Richard was still ill, but he could relax. “It” had a name. It was a wrong name, granted, but at least it allowed him to recognize the enemy. He could begin to separate what was due to his own fear and what was due to illness.

Over the next few months, other tests on Epstein Barr virus were run, as it had become clear that this was not the typical mono that would resolve in six weeks. Eventually, the diagnosis was changed to chronic fatigue syndrome, CFS.An entire year passed, a year during which Richard was unable to go to work at Rochester Plastics.

The early flu-like symptoms had remained remarkably constant, but he had new ones, too. He had difficulty concentrating – a sensation he described as a kind of “brain fog,” and numbness and tingling sensations in his arms and legs. Those symptoms came and went, but one symptom was intractable: crushing fatigue.

It was not tiredness, not even exhaustion. It was the sick exhaustion of the flu. He would attempt to get up from his bed and move around, even go to work for a day or two, but the fatigue would end up knocking him flat again.

Eventually, Rochester Plastics put him on short-term disability leave. Every month, I sent a slip to Rochester Plastics promising the company that Richard would be back to work soon, hoping for the best. All those broken promises led Richard just one place: long term disability leave.

Richard spent his days lying on his couch, watching TV, and talking on the phone. For him, the unbidden lassitude was torture. There would be no summer softball league, no deer hunting in the fall, no winter basketball in the gym.

Inevitably, whenever Richard tried to shake himself out of his confinement and try to play a sport, the result was always the same:

• He would be flattened,
• And with even more muscle pain and exhaustion than before.

Two years passed. Richard’s symptoms weren’t getting any worse, and some of them were even beginning to slack off.

In my efforts to help, I had prescribed antibiotics, antidepressants, and stimulants. Richard himself explored every conceivable homeopathic option, without appreciable results. I was unable to persuade myself that any of the medications I had prescribed had made a difference, either. It seemed to me that Richard was beginning to get better on his own.

By then, his level of activity during any given day hovered at around 40% of what would have been normal for him. At the start of his illness, I measured Richard’s activity level at about 20%.

Defining a person’s activity level in a scientific manner can be complicated, but not impossible. In 1988, two researchers performed a study in which they asked subjects to keep a detailed daily diary in order to calculate the amount of energy expended for every activity. There is a small amount of energy expended for sleep, more for playing the piano, still more for swimming.

Using their method, I might have calculated scientifically Richard’s daily caloric expenditure and come to some highly specific conclusions about his activity levels. But the method is tedious, and I have found CFS patients to be highly accurate and consistent in their estimation of the daily activities pre- and post-CFS. It has always turned out that their own estimates are just as good as the time consuming scientific measures. Not as fancy, but as reliable over the long term.

In the day’s early hours, Richard was rarely able to do more than brush his teeth or drink some juice. His mornings were spent on the couch. “ I have been eaten by the couch,” he would say. Of course, he wanted to be active every day – but his body refused to respond to his will.

Except at two in the afternoon. It was the time when dead muscles seemed to come to life and his brain cleared a little, the period when he did not feel, in his own words, “like a bag of garbage.” Some invisible infusion of energy got him up and moving around his house, at first tentatively.

An hour or two later, he would say, “The plug has been pulled.

He could feel the exact moment when the energy source was cut. When I evaluate CFS patients for their degree of activity over periods of weeks and months, it is apparent to me that they are afforded a relatively constant amount of time each day during which they can stand, walk, and function in a fairly normal manner. Over the short term, however, say over two days, there can often be a surprising degree of fluctuation.

Much of the present confusion about CFS is probably generated by this characteristic spurt of increased energy patients experience for extremely brief periods during the frequently years-long course of their illness.

In our culture, which rarely examines the day to day reality of chronic (as opposed to acute) disease, you are either sick, or you are well.

There can be no fluctuation, no middle ground. If your neighbor sees you at the grocery store:
• She assumes you’re always well enough to shop;
• She doesn’t celebrate the fact that you have managed to dress, put the car into gear, and find your way to the dairy case;<br />
• Nor does she rue the fact that when you return home, you may lack the strength to take the groceries out of their bags and put them away.
• The matter is beyond her realm of experience and education.

By the time Richard had been ill for two years, and he had begun to feel well enough in the early afternoons for an hour or two of activity, he was eager to go out into the world.

When you have only about 20% of your normal energy level most of the time, an hour or two at 80% seems very good indeed.

Of course, despite his long illness, Richard looked completely normal to casual observers, and when neighbors noticed him outside his house, they assumed he had recovered fully.

His wife Jamie, in contrast, knew Richard well enough to notice consistent changes in skin tone and facial expression that heralded the moment when Richard’s energy would drain out of him. She described a lifeless expression in his eyes and a gray skin pallor, a color that was almost corpse-like.

These changes were too subtle for me to see, but Jamie, like most spouses who know their partners well, was a good observer. I wondered if these marked changes in expression and skin tone would offer insights into the disease itself.

Richard encountered the kind of resistance faced by every CFS sufferer when he tried to obtain full-time disability support from his company.

By then, CFS had become a controversial illness, even a notorious one. One side of the debate held that sufferers were either hypochondriacs, neurotics, or scam artists.

Perhaps not surprisingly, Richard’s company was reluctant to help. I vouched for Richard’s honesty and the severity of his illness, but I found it difficult to answer many of the questions posed by the company’s disability forms; they simply weren’t designed for a disease as complex as CFS.

Most disabilities are fixed or immutable, involving the loss of function of an eye or limb. A typical disability form will ask the doctor, “How many pounds can applicant lift with left hand?”

Technically, Richard could still lift 40 pounds. He was not confined to a wheelchair, he did not limp, nor was he blind or deaf. He was none of those things, but he couldn’t have worked an eight-hour day if his life depended on it.

In contrast to Richard’s day-to-day health status, the disability forms from Rochester Plastics were inflexible. At a loss, I finally wrote in the bottom margin, “Mr. Watkins is unable to sustain productive activity for more than three hours a day because of fatigue.”

My effort on Richard’s behalf seemed to help a bit. Rochester Plastics maintained Richard’s disability benefits at least for the time being. But the company was far from happy. In fact, Richard’s superiors were certain they were being ‘had.’

By the beginning of his third year of CFS, Richard began to improve significantly. The array of symptoms remained unchanged; they were simply less severe.

His ability to participate in the daily life of his household was expanding. He now experienced several hours each day, instead of one or two, when he could take a walk, go shopping, and generally feel as if he were a member of the human race once again.

I have always encouraged patients to take full advantage of these fleeting hours of better energy. To this day, I remain uncertain as to whether the increased movement actually stimulates improvement in some way, or whether a patient’s ability to function for some portion of a day is a hallmark of spontaneous improvement.

As I typically do with all CFS patients, I encouraged Richard to be as active as possible, whenever he could. For him just being able to go outdoors was a sign that he was not really dying, and might actually be getting better; if nothing else, it was important to his mental health.

Some people read books, some people watch television. Before his illness began, basketball had been Richard’s life, an essential ingredient of his existence. It’s fair to say he lived on air, water, food, and basketball. And when Richard started getting significantly better in his third year of illness, throwing hoops was the first thing he attempted in those early afternoon hours of heightened energy.

A friend installed a ramp under the basket in Richard’s driveway so that the ball would roll back toward Richard after he threw it, saving him a few extra steps. Richard would stand 10 feet from the basket, aim, and put the ball through. Most of the time, the ball bounced right back to him; he didn’t even have to move.

In this way, he could shoot hoops for longer periods. Occasionally, after a miss, he would jog over and pick up the ball. On such days, in his imagination, he was taking a buzzer shot for the New York Knicks in a tie game with the Celtics, and the crowds at Madison Square Garden were going wild.

Then he would walk back into his house and crash on his couch for three hours.

As the months passed, Richard slowly improved. He measured his gains by the strength of his shooting arm, the number of baskets he made in a row, and the total number of minutes he could actually shoot hoops. He had even begun taking some shots from the three point line.

There was no doubt that he was getting better. The hoop play was exercise and psychotherapy combined. No medicine I could prescribe would help his physical and mental health like basketball.

That summer in upstate New York had been a beautiful one. It stays light in the evenings until nearly nine in the evening. The wind coming off Lake Ontario was cool and pleasant after work and, like Richard, I loved to play basketball. I am a Celtics fan. I could happily abandon nearly everything else about Boston, but not the Celtics.

After a day in my Lyndonville clinic, I would sometimes stop by Richard’s house and we would play one-on-one. Even if our game lasted just 10 minutes, it was always exciting. The former athlete, still hobbled by CFS, and I were a pretty even match. We played like 14-year-olds, but in slow motion. Not uncommonly, I would limp home with a twisted ankle or a pulled calf muscle.

One day I received a call in my office from a man who wanted to set up an appointment to talk with me about Richard Watkins.

I made some time for him the following day. His name was John Armstrong. He was accompanied by a tall, gaunt man with sallow features and decidedly shifty eyes. Armstrong failed to introduce his companion, who stood behind him, his eyes darting from door to window.

This mystery man seemed to have stepped right out of a Fifties gangster film. I thought I could make out a bulge near the armpit of his poorly tailored black suit. I speculated that he was Armstrong’s body guard, and that the bulge was a holster. For a town the size of Lyndonville, this was really an exciting development.

Armstrong sat in the chair beside my desk; his companion apparently preferred to stand. Armstrong fixed me in his gaze and began: “I am the plant manager of Rochester Plastics. Your patient, Richard Watkins, is one of our employees.” “Okay,” I said.

“We have papers, signed by you, that state Mr. Watkins is physically disabled with chronic fatigue syndrome.” “Okay,” I said.

Armstrong stared at me accusingly. “Mr. Purtillo here…” and he paused to look at his partner, “is a private investigator. Our company has hired him to investigate this claim.” “Okay,” I said.

“We do not think Mr. Watkins is sick. In fact, we have videotape of him playing basketball.” As if on cue, Purtillo, still standing, caught my eye and exposed the corner of a videotape he was carrying in his suitcoat pocket.

“Now,” continued Armstrong, “I’m sure you may have been convinced that Mr. Watkins is sick, so I thought you would like to know about this videotape.”

I cleared my throat as I tried to collect my thoughts. “I am aware that Mr. Watkins has been playing basketball in his backyard,” I said finally. “In fact, I have been playing basketball with him – and on a fairly regular basis. Maybe I’m on that tape,” I added in an attempt at humor that fell flat. “If you had called me about this, I could have saved you some time and money.”

Armstrong stared at me, his mouth open. If Richard Watkins was well enough to play basketball, he was well enough to work, Armstrong insisted.

In turn, I tried to explain the subtleties of a disease that left its victims bed-ridden or couch-ridden 22 hours a day, but sometimes allowed them a short period of heightened energy, a period during which they might appear to the uninitiated to be perfectly well.

I told Armstrong that although Richard often could shoot hoops with me for as much as 30 minutes at a time, he was still too weak to work eight consecutive hours. I added that, not only was I aware of Richard’s hoop shooting, I had encouraged it as exercise therapy because I had hoped it would hasten his recovery.

My words seemed to make no impression at all.

Armstrong really wanted me to look at the tape. I assured him that unless he could show me something other than Richard standing quietly for 15 or 20 minutes in front of a basketball hoop with a wooden ramp underneath it, I didn’t need to watch the video.

I told him, too, that I believed Richard was improving, and that he might be able to return to work within the next six months, as long as Rochester Plastics could offer him a job with flexible hours.

Armstrong promised me that the matter would be taken up for discussion – in court.

I have few regrets in my life. To this day, I regret my failure to ask Purtillo the question that still haunts me: How many hours did he have to hide in the bushes behind Richard’s house to get his 15-minute video?

The sight of the bulging holster caused me to bite my tongue, however. I remained silent.

Months passed without further word from Armstrong and Purtillo. I filled out yet another disability form from Rochester Plastics on Richard’s behalf. Under a section called “current treatment,” I noted that I was encouraging physical activity for my patient.

Although not every CFS patient can boast of improvement, Richard’s return to health continued.
• Four months after my encounter with Armstrong and Purtillo, he was able to go back to work half-time, with some modifications in his duties.
• Six months later, Richard went back to work full-time.

Years have passed and Richard has proven to be one of the lucky CFS sufferers: He has recovered completely.

He is not only working, but coaching basketball on the side. Sometimes, on warm summer evenings, Richard and I throw hoops together and, afterward, drink iced tea.

I’m kind of sorry that we never had an opportunity to see that video played in court.

David S Bell, MD, Aug 15, 2000
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* This article is excerpted with kind permission from Dr. Bell’s classic book Faces of CFS – Case Histories of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome; © David S Bell, MD, 2000. This information has not been evaluated by the FDA. It is general information only and is not meant to prevent, diagnose treat or cure any condition, illness or disease. It is very important that you make no change in your healthcare plan or health support regimen without researching and reviewing it in collaboration with your professional healthcare team.

“The Prisoner”

Case Histories of ME/CFS: “The Prisoner”
ProHealth.com
by David S Bell, MD, FAAP
April 4, 2012

This is the case history of a man whose fear of relapse 4 years after sudden onset of ME/CFS nearly robbed him of recovery. It is excerpted from Dr. Bells free e-book Faces of CFS – Case Histories of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, published in August, 2000 ( David S Bell, MD, 2000).

Reprinted with the kind permission of ProHealth: 4/4/12

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THE PRISONER

It is so ironic that while most doctors see CFS as hypochondriasis, I feel that hypochondriasis may be the result of the combination of CFS and the physician ignorance. Patients must sail these waters without guidance, forcing them to make it on their own.

Those of us in good health rarely appreciate our good fortune. We live our lives ravenously, devouring the minutes of the day with work, play, love – ever eager for the next course. We charge ahead, assuming life will go on as always.

In order to accomplish this, we allow ourselves to be oblivious to the suffering of others. We push their pain to the deep recesses of our subconscious, and remain blind to the fact that around the corner may lie an event that will change the foundation of our lives with similar finality.

Gary Burns was just like the rest of us. There was nothing malevolent about his view of life; he harbored no evil intentions. Yet, he was as unaware of the suffering of others as the rest of the world was about to be of his own suffering.

Like most patients, Gary’s ordeal began with a bout of what he assumed must be flu. He was 37, robust and active, a husband and a father.

This flu announced itself to Gary one day in October of 1986. The course of Gary’s illness, and the eventual dissolution of everything that he had once taken for granted, was typical for an adult who experiences what we doctors call sudden onset of chronic fatigue syndrome (ME/CFS).

Initially, he was offered a months sick leave by his company, a nearby factory. He tried to go back to work when his sick leave ended, but often he felt in a state of collapse by noon, and had to leave the jobsite.

He took an extended leave of absence, hoping for recovery. If he could just catch up on his sleep, he kept telling himself and others, all would be well. Gary had moments during the day when he found the strength to shower, wander through his house, and ponder the possibility of returning to his job. But, soon enough, it would return, and he would tumble onto the sofa and sleep the day away.

Gary still had no idea what it was, and his doctor hadnt a clue, either. Gary had been ill for six months when his doctor announced that he had been unable to discover a medical explanation for Gary’s symptoms.

He advised Gary to snap out of it, to get more exercise, and to see a psychiatrist.

Like a lot of people, Gary trusted his doctor and believed what his doctor had told him. With some embarrassment, and worry over the expense, Gary arranged an appointment with a psychiatrist. After all, he was desperate, and willing to try anything. The psychiatrist probed for information about Gary’s life, and Gary answered the psychiatrists questions honestly.

He said he was in the process of being fired, and that he was going broke.

He confessed he had been unusually irritable, chastising his kids for creating noise and havoc in the house, and sulking whenever his wife tried to comfort him.

In a revelation that was somewhat difficult for him, Gary admitted he was depressed.

The doctor prescribed an antidepressant, and invited Gary to continue therapy in order to resolve emotional conflicts – conflicts that the psychiatrist suggested were the cause of Gary’s disabling illness.

The following day, however, when Gary took the first pill, he rapidly deteriorated, feeling as if he had been hit full force by a freight train.

He slept for two days, and when he was finally able to stay awake, he felt hung over, as if he had drunk a case of liquor the night before. Perhaps not surprisingly, Gary decided to cancel his next appointment.

The psychiatrists secretary insisted the antidepressant could not possibly have caused Gary’s severe reaction. She also advised him he would be charged for the appointment, whether he showed up or not. So much for psychiatry, Gary thought, and never returned. By then, Gary felt as if he was riding a wild and powerful horse, but the reins had slipped from his hands.

Desperation was a daily staple, and as he lay in a helpless mound on his bed, or the sofa, he searched his mind frantically for solutions.

His mother, whom he had frequently accused of being a health nut, owned a health food store. Gary decided to sample the assorted vitamins and nostrums available in his mothers shop. He began eating organic food and taking vitamins for the first time in his life, although he noticed no immediate improvement.

On his worst days, he wondered if he had a terminal illness, especially cancer, that his doctor had missed. He decided to read everything he could about cancer; if the doctors were incapable of discovering the cause of his symptoms, he would become a doctor himself.

In the course of his reading journey, Gary came upon an article that described CFS.

The stories of the patients in this article resonated with his own experience of the disease: sudden onset; a long, chronic course, exhaustion, headaches, pain; sensitivity to light, night sweats, the sensation – if not the reality – of high fever.

He was stunned when he read that patients with CFS are exquisitely sensitive to many drugs, including anti-depressants such as the one he had taken. He felt as if he was reading his own biography. In fact, he was so persuaded that the long-standing mystery of the last year was resolved, he felt incredulous that his doctor had missed the obvious signs, which now seemed so obvious.

There was just one small detail of the disease, as CFS was described in the article, that didnt seem to fit: Gary had never really thought of himself as a Yuppie [with Yuppie Flu].

Certain of his diagnosis, nonetheless, Gary plunged headlong into health nut-ism, with his mothers encouragement and guidance. He eliminated fat from his diet and took handfuls of vitamins. He waded through lengthy discussions of echinacea, germanium, and zinc. Still, he remained unable to work.

Even though previous attempts to exercise had ended in disaster, Gary next decided workouts might be the solution to his nightmare.

He committed himself to pushing past the sore throats and exacerbated fatigue that had followed on the heels of vigorous activity on other occasions. In fact, he gave it everything he had, beginning with a brisk, one-mile walk each day.

On day four, however, when he tried to jog, he felt so suddenly weak at a juncture in the road not far from his house, he wondered whether he would be able to make his way back on two feet. He was completely bedridden for the next two weeks.

Gary felt hopeless.

He had been fired, and most of his friends had dropped him, seeming to have forgotten about everything they had once shared in common.

The medical profession seemed utterly ignorant of his condition.br />

A day rarely passed when he failed to ponder suicide, but the notion of leaving such a traumatic legacy for his children always pulled him up short.

Now, he became exceedingly cautious with his body.

He cloistered himself from the noise and activity of his family.

He woke at nine, downed his vitamins, and showered, and then he rested.

At noon, he ate a health nut lunch of fruits and grains, and then he rested.

In the late afternoons, he attempted a few chores and stretched his muscles in the quiet of his living room. His children stayed with neighbors after school until his wife returned from work.

Together, the family ate a nutritious dinner. Afterward, Gary rested.

At ten, he went to bed, where he lay quietly until he fell asleep at midnight.

Two years of Gary’s life passed in this way.

Most of what was important to him before the onset of CFS had dissolved in those two years. His children became used to their new father, the one who could not play baseball or take them to the county fair. They began to forget their old father.

And then something wonderful happened: Gary started to get better.

The severity of his daily headache lessened, as did the crushing fatigue; he was able to be more active. Gary felt confident that his improvement was due to his adherence to his rigid schedule of the previous two years.

In the third year of his illness he told me he felt he was functioning at about 70% of his pre-CFS activity level.

Still, he planned his days with great care, taking a short walk just twice a week, playing catch with his children each day. He told me proudly that he could ride the lawn mower and cut the entire lawn without stopping to rest in the middle of the job.

It was apparent that he had finally accepted his new life; his despair was gone.

By the fourth year Gary complained only of persistent fatigue, muscle aching, and the fractured, disturbed sleep patterns that are common to virtually all CFS patients, and, in fact, are one of the most pervasive hallmarks of the disease.

Although Gary’s symptoms were less severe than they had been in the past however, he continued his rigid adherence to a reduced level of activity. He believed that his careful attention to what he ate and his meager exercise regime was responsible for his improvement; that he had finally regained control of his destiny.

I became worried – not about the illness, but about Gary’s nearly obsessive concern with over-exerting himself. He had become his own prisoner, caught up in self-imposed rules and regulations that severely limited his experience of the world. One day, I voiced my concerns. I told him that he was both his own jailer and inmate.

I told him he needed to take some risks. I suggested exercise.

His mouth nearly fell open, recalling his own disaster with exercise two years before. Most CFS patients have learned through bitter experience that efforts to surmount their disability and engage in the kind of exercise activities they routinely performed before they fell ill is unlikely to have a good result.

But the problem is not exercise, it is the assumption that exercise will by definition change the course of the illness.

For patients with severe illness, exercise does not change the course and may lead to worsened symptoms.

But if CFS is getting better, exercise is great and may speed the recovery.

I suspected Gary was no longer in the severe illness category. In fact, I was uncertain whether his reduced activity level, which continued to hover around 70% of what was normal for him, was due to CFS, or due to physical de-conditioning as a result of his fear of exertion.

After all, he had been monitoring himself like an organism under a microscope for three years. Granted, he had learned the brutal limits of his disease through suffering, but it seemed to me that he was becoming almost hypochondriacal in his attention to his body.

It is so ironic that while most doctors see CFS as hypochondriasis, I feel that hypochondriasis may be the result of the combination of CFS and the physician ignorance. Patients must sail these waters without guidance, forcing them to make it on their own.

Of course, the only way to find out was to ask Gary to exercise, and he and I both knew the proposition was risky.

Which is better: to exist safely in a compulsively rigid way of life? Or try for a full-out, 100% return to normalcy – at the risk of initiating a relapse that might turn the clock back for Gary by months or even years?

Gary reminded me that it was his life I was risking by making such a request, not my own. Good point. I was asking him to throw away his fear of the pain and suffering of the past years, all the while courting its return. Did I have that right? I had come to know Gary well by then. My observations and intuition led me to believe that Gary was going to be one of the lucky ones; he was going to beat the illness.

All signs pointed to continued improvement.

If my suspicions were in error, I thought, Gary would have a relapse, but he would likely recover from it within a month.

And, more importantly, at least we would have our answer. He would still be a prisoner, but he would be prisoner of the disease, not his own fear.

After a great deal of discussion, Gary finally agreed to try.

We planned an exercise program that was extremely gentle.

Most healthy people wouldnt have considered it an exercise program at all.

We planned stretching exercises, then slow walking, then brisk walking – depending upon the progress, if any.

When Gary joked that he was dedicating his body to science, his wife frowned. In the beginning, Gary experienced significant anxiety, and increased muscle aching, as well. But, over a period of weeks, the quality of his sleep began to improve, along with a decrease in the muscle pain.

In fact, at the end of two months, it was clear to Gary and to me that he was better.

And when his fear began to diminish, he became more willing to venture out into the world of the living. After three months, he had even more energy, and felt confident and enthusiastic about life to a degree he had not experienced for years.

This is not to say his fatigue evaporated. He was tired, sometimes very tired. But, as Gary pointed out, it was good tiredness, not a CFS tiredness.

In the complicated realm of CFS, where there remain so many unanswered questions, I am not sure what recovery actually means.

I often wonder whether the illness vanishes completely, leaving the patient the same as before,

Or if it simply recedes in the background, becoming mild enough that the patient learns to ignore its nagging distractions.

Both probably occur.

In a study Mary Robinson did of our patients, 20% remained disabled after 15 years. Of the remaining 80%, half persisted with symptoms although they were able to lead relatively normal lives.

Several years have passed for Gary and we continue to stay in touch. He has clearly entered that privileged circle of CFS patients who actually recover fully from the disease. I do not think that his continued recovery can be attributed to exercise, or even the vitamins, but who knows?

I do feel that if Gary had not tried the exercise, he would have stayed in his prison for the rest of his life. Gary recovered for reasons that are mysterious, but he needed to take a leap of faith in order to demonstrate the recovery to himself.

Gary doesnt really think about these issues very much anymore. He is working again, and engaged once more in the lives of his spouse and children. Nevertheless, he has been changed profoundly by his experience. He left his prison of four years, but as a different man. He carries with him an appreciation of his incredible good luck. His suffering now is confined to feeling the suffering of others who are in pain.

When he watches the news on television, and there is a story about AIDS or multiple sclerosis or cancer or CFS, he does not rush to change the channel as he once might have done.

Instead, his eyes fill with tears.

– David S Bell, MD, Aug 15, 2000

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Note: This information represents the experience and opinions of Dr. David Bell. It is generic and for general information purposes only. ME/CFS/FM is an extremely complex illness, and such general information may not be appropriate for an individual with this illness. Therefore, should you be interested in the ideas presented here, please discuss them with your personal physician.

Myalgic Encephalomyelitis/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome diagnostic reporting in the 2021-2023 National Health Interview Survey

Abstract:

Background: Myalgic Encephalomyelitis/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (ME/CFS) is a chronic disabling illness characterized by activity limitations associated with fatigue, post-exertional malaise (PEM), unrefreshing sleep, memory and concentration problems, orthostatic intolerance and painful discomfort. While typically considered to be a chronic condition, some persons who have had ME/CFS report no longer having the disorder. Here, the prevalence and characteristics of adults in the United States who self-report having an ME/CFS diagnosis and those who self-report no longer having ME/CFS are presented.

Methods: The current study utilized publicly available data from the 2021-2023 National Health Interview Survey, which interviewed 86,655 United States civilian non-institutionalized adults about their health. For this study, participants were categorized into three groups: Current ME/CFS (individuals currently diagnosed with ME/CFS), Past ME/CFS (individuals who were previously diagnosed but no longer report having the condition), and Never ME/CFS (individuals who have never been diagnosed with ME/CFS). These groups were characterized using descriptive statistics.

Results: In the United States adult population, 20.7% of the estimated 1.5% adults who ever received an ME/CFS diagnosis report they no longer have the condition (Past ME/CFS). Overall the Past ME/CFS group reported experiencing symptoms less frequently, less difficulty with daily living, approximately equal prevalence of comorbidities, and better general health status than the Current ME/CFS group but remained significantly impaired compared to the Never ME/CFS group. However, 40-50% of adults with Past ME/CFS report symptoms and function similar to adults with Current ME/CFS and only approximately 25% had substantially less symptoms and better function compared to those with Current ME/CFS. Comorbidities did not differ significantly between the Current and Past ME/CFS groups.

Conclusion: Further study to better understand the reasons why those in the Past ME/CFS group report no longer having the disorder is important for understanding the natural history and disease burden of ME/CFS. Studying symptomatic remissions, and the underlying physiology of improvement, could lead to identification of new disease modifying therapeutic approaches.

Source: Fleig K, Nahin R, Stussman B, Wilkerson M, Unger ER, Lin JS, Walitt B. Myalgic Encephalomyelitis/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome diagnostic reporting in the 2021-2023 National Health Interview Survey. BMC Public Health. 2026 May 8. doi: 10.1186/s12889-026-27598-5. Epub ahead of print. PMID: 42104344. https://link.springer.com/article/10.1186/s12889-026-27598-5 (Full text available as PDF file)

Recovery from Myalgic Encephalomyelitis/Chronic Fatigue syndrome developed after severe acute respiratory syndrome coronavirus 2 vaccination: A case report

Abstract:

Background: Myalgic encephalomyelitis/chronic fatigue syndrome (ME/CFS) is a neurological adverse effect after severe acute respiratory syndrome coronavirus 2 (SARS-CoV-2) vaccinations. However, clinicians do not recognize the condition well, and no case report has shown a full recovery.

Case presentation: We present a 65-year-old Japanese female who experienced severe fatigue, postexertional malaise, orthostatic intolerance, and various symptoms after her third SARS-CoV-2 vaccination. Following thorough examinations and excluding other potential diagnoses, she met the diagnostic criteria for myalgic encephalomyelitis/chronic fatigue syndrome (ME/CFS). The symptoms persisted for 30 months and improved ultimately with comprehensive treatment and a self-management strategy, including pacing management, pharmacological treatments, and psychiatric interventions to support those struggling with the despair over the devastating symptoms.

Conclusion: This case report describes ME/CFS following the SARS-CoV-2 vaccination and its full recovery. It illustrates the importance of considering the differential diagnosis of psychiatric disorders and addressing the condition through psychiatric interventions. Our findings provide new insights into treating ME/CFS and the vaccination-related adverse effects.

Source: Kurotori I, Sasao W, Abe M. Recovery from Myalgic Encephalomyelitis/Chronic Fatigue syndrome developed after severe acute respiratory syndrome coronavirus 2 vaccination: A case report. PCN Rep. 2025 Apr 27;4(2):e70111. doi: 10.1002/pcn5.70111. PMID: 40291166; PMCID: PMC12034265. https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC12034265/ (Full text)

Successful Subcutaneous Immunoglobulin Therapy in a Case Series of Patients With Myalgic Encephalomyelitis/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

Abstract:

Purpose: Myalgic encephalomyelitis/chronic fatigue syndrome (ME/CFS) remains an enigma with no curable treatment options at hand. Although patients with ME/CFS are a heterogeneous group, a large proportion of patients present with an infection-driven symptomatology, making them potential responders to immunologic treatments, such as immunoglobulin (IG). Previous studies on IG treatment in patients with ME/CFS have not been consistent but have described beneficial effects in subgroups of patients.

Methods: Here we present data on a series of cases (n = 17) with infection-related ME/CFS (as defined by disease history and ongoing recurrent infections) treated with subcutaneous low-dose IG (0.06 g/kg/mo) over 5 weeks with continuous monitoring of symptoms.

Findings: Patients were predominantly female (65%) with mild-to-moderate disease severity (82%) and with poor self-reported quality of life (median, 25 on a 0-100 scale) and working ability (median, 5 on a 0-100 scale) before treatment. After 5 weeks of treatment with low-dose IG, significant improvements in symptoms, quality of life, and working ability were noted (all P < 0.05). Among the 7 patients who reported the highest benefit of the treatment, quality of life increased by 35 units (on a 0-100 scale), with 1 patient reporting complete elimination of ME/CFS symptoms. No serious side effects were detected with the treatment.

Implications: In this limited-sized case series, we found pronounced beneficial effects of low-dose IG in a large proportion of patients with infection-related ME/CFS. Further well-controlled studies are needed to verify the potential benefits of IG treatment in patients with ME/CFS with infection-driven symptomatology.

Source: Sjogren P, Bragée B, Britton S. Successful Subcutaneous Immunoglobulin Therapy in a Case Series of Patients With Myalgic Encephalomyelitis/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. Clin Ther. 2024 Jun 22:S0149-2918(24)00131-0. doi: 10.1016/j.clinthera.2024.05.010. Epub ahead of print. PMID: 38910072.

Patient perspectives of recovery from myalgic encephalomyelitis/chronic fatigue syndrome: An interpretive description study

Abstract:

Aims and objectives: Myalgic encephalomyelitis (ME), also called chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS), is characterised by persistent fatigue, postexertional malaise, and cognitive dysfunction. It is a complex, long-term, and debilitating illness without widely effective treatments. This study describes the treatment choices and experiences of ME/CFS patients who have experienced variable levels of recovery.

Method: Interpretive description study consisting of semi-structured qualitative interviews with 33 people who met the US Centers for Disease Control (2015) diagnostic criteria for ME/CFS and report recovery or symptom improvement.

Results: Twenty-six participants endorsed partial recovery, and seven reported full recovery from ME/CFS. Participants reported expending significant time and energy to identify, implement, and adapt therapeutic interventions, often without the guidance of a medical practitioner. They formulated individualised treatment plans reflecting their understanding of their illness and personal resources. Most fully recovered participants attributed their success to mind-body approaches.

Conclusion: Patients with ME/CFS describe independently constructing and managing treatment plans, due to a lack of health system support. Stigmatised and dismissive responses from clinicians precipitated disengagement from the medical system and prompted use of other forms of treatment.

Source: Hasan Z, Kuyvenhoven C, Chowdhury M, Amoudi L, Zeraatkar D, Busse JW, Sadik M, Vanstone M. Patient perspectives of recovery from myalgic encephalomyelitis/chronic fatigue syndrome: An interpretive description study. J Eval Clin Pract. 2023 Nov 6. doi: 10.1111/jep.13938. Epub ahead of print. PMID: 37927138. https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1111/jep.13938 (Full text)

The fragile process of Homecoming – Young women in recovery from severe ME/CFS

Abstract:

Purpose: To explore the recovery narratives of 13 young women who had fallen ill with severe Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (ME), also known as Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS), during childhood and adolescence, with the focus on what they had to say about their past experiences from the perspective of the present.

Method: A qualitative narrative approach, informed by a phenomenological theoretical perspective, was adopted to explore what the women found significant and meaningful in their recovery process. Data analysis of in-depth narrative interviews was performed which are presented to readers through the stories of two particular participants.

Results: The first story describes how one participant made a recovery by testing her body’s tolerance and working to create a more confident self. The second story describes a complex exploration of possibilities for action in recovery, along with a struggle to make sense of setbacks and hold on to what has been gained.

Conclusion: Recovering from ME/CFS emerges as an inter-personal, contextual, fragile and nonlinear process of homecoming, based on gradually rising bodily based self-knowledge. Illness slowly fades away into the background, and there is the prospect of a healthier tomorrow.

Source: Krabbe SH, Groven KS, Schrøder Bjorbækmo W, Sveen U, Mengshoel AM. The fragile process of Homecoming – Young women in recovery from severe ME/CFS. Int J Qual Stud Health Well-being. 2023 Dec;18(1):2146244. doi: 10.1080/17482631.2022.2146244. PMID: 36367977. https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/full/10.1080/17482631.2022.2146244 (Full text)

Factors Influencing the Prognosis of Patients with Myalgic Encephalomyelitis/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

Myalgic encephalomyelitis/chronic fatigue syndrome (ME/CFS) is a long-term debilitating multisystem condition with poor prognosis. Studies that examined predictors of ME/CFS outcomes yielded contradictory results. We aimed to explore epidemiological and clinical prognostic factors of ME/CFS using operationalized criteria for recovery/improvement.
Adult ME/CFS patients who attended the Internal Medicine Department of Angers University Hospital, Angers, France between October 2011 and December 2019, and were followed up until December 2020, were included retrospectively. Their medical records were reviewed for data collection. Patients were classified into two groups according to the presence or absence of recovery/improvement (R/I) and compared for epidemiological characteristics, fatigue features, post-exertional malaise severity, clinical manifestations, and comorbidities.
The subgroups of recovered and significantly improved patients were then compared. 168 patients were included. Recovery and improvement rates were 8.3% and 4.8%, respectively. Older age at disease onset was associated with R/I (OR 1.06 [95% CI 1.007–1.110] (p = 0.028)), while diagnostic delay was inversely associated with R/I (OR 0.98 [95% CI 0.964–0.996] (p = 0.036)). The study findings confirmed the poor prognosis of ME/CFS and the deleterious effect of diagnostic delay on disease progression. Interestingly, being older at disease onset was associated with better outcomes, which offers hope to patients for recovery/improvement even at an advanced age.
Source: Ghali A, Lacout C, Fortrat J-O, Depres K, Ghali M, Lavigne C. Factors Influencing the Prognosis of Patients with Myalgic Encephalomyelitis/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. Diagnostics. 2022; 12(10):2540. https://doi.org/10.3390/diagnostics12102540  https://www.mdpi.com/2075-4418/12/10/2540 (Full text available as PDF file)

Recovery from chronic fatigue syndrome: a systematic review-heterogeneity of definition limits study comparison

Abstract:

Background: Paediatric chronic fatigue syndrome or myalgic encephalomyelitis (CFS/ME) is a common illness with a major impact on quality of life. Recovery is poorly understood. Our aim was to describe definitions of recovery in paediatric CFS/ME, the rate of recovery and the time to recovery.

Methods: This systematic review included a detailed search of MEDLINE, EMBASE, PsycInfo and Cochrane Library between 1994 and July 2018. Inclusion criteria were (1) clinical trials and observational studies, (2) participants aged <19 years with CFS/ME, (3) conducted in Western Healthcare systems and (4) studies including a measure of recovery and time taken to recover.

Results: Twelve papers (10 studies) were identified, involving 826 patients (range 23-135). Recovery rates were highly varied, ranging between 4.5% and 83%.Eleven distinct definitions of recovery were used; six were composite outcomes while five used unidimensional outcomes. Outcome measures used to define recovery were highly heterogeneous. School attendance (n=8), fatigue (n=6) and physical functioning (n=4) were the most common outcomes included in definition of recovery. Only five definitions included a personal measure of recovery.

Implications: Definitions of recovery are highly variable, likely secondary to differences in study design, outcomes used, follow-up and study populations. Heterogeneous definitions of recovery limit meaningful comparison between studies, highlighting the need for a consensus definition going forward. Recovery is probably best defined from the child’s own perspective with a single self-reported measure. If composite measures are used for research, there should be agreement on the core outcome set used.

Source: Moore Y, Serafimova T, Anderson N, King H, Richards A, Brigden A, Sinai P, Higgins J, Ascough C, Clery P, Crawley EM. Recovery from chronic fatigue syndrome: a systematic review-heterogeneity of definition limits study comparison. Arch Dis Child. 2021 Apr 12:archdischild-2020-320196. doi: 10.1136/archdischild-2020-320196. Epub ahead of print. PMID: 33846138. https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/33846138/

Sick of the Sick Role: Narratives of What “Recovery” Means to People With CFS/ME

Abstract:

Little is known about what recovery means to those with chronic fatigue syndrome/myalgic encephalomyelitis, a poorly understood, disabling chronic health condition. To explore this issue, semi-structured interviews were conducted with patients reporting improvement (n = 9) and deterioration (n = 10) after a guided self-help intervention, and analyzed via “constant comparison.” The meaning of recovery differed between participants-expectations for improvement and deployment of the sick role (and associated stigma) were key influences. While some saw recovery as complete freedom from symptoms, many defined it as freedom from the “sick role,” with functionality prioritized. Others redefined recovery, reluctant to return to the lifestyle that may have contributed to their illness, or rejected the concept as unhelpful. Recovery is not always about eliminating all symptoms. Rather, it is a nexus between the reality of limited opportunities for full recovery, yet a strong desire to leave the illness behind and regain a sense of “normality.”

Source: Cheshire A, Ridge D, Clark LV, White PD. Sick of the Sick Role: Narratives of What “Recovery” Means to People With CFS/ME. Qual Health Res. 2020 Nov 11:1049732320969395. doi: 10.1177/1049732320969395. Epub ahead of print. PMID: 33176575. https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/33176575/